I searched God when ever I needed him. In temples, in images, at places. But I didn’t find
Most of the times it made me rethink about his existence.
I did things, and I did more, and I did even more and asked God to accompany me in every
act of mine.
But he didn’t. Now it made me doubt on his existence.
I cried in pain and asked him to prove himself. He didn’t.
It made me sure that he isn’t there, nowhere. Nothing alike.
One day some one calls my name when I sleep with lights of my room off.
I didn’t see him but the voice still calls my name. He tells me that this is not over. The one
whom I was calling and asking to justify what I did never does as and when we want it to be
done. He has his own way and..
timing. Giving up is a choice but not an option.
Start disbelieving is an inclination. Beliefs are developed but faith is not. Faith is acquired
and kept when nothing seems like ‘possible’.
Faith is not thinking that “God can” but knowing that “He will” (by unknown).
If you have faith in God, you must have to handover yourself to him and keep believing
that the thing you need is always given to you. You have to keep believing on him and
on his timing.
If you are suspicious about him go and look around things living and non living and try to
justify their being in this universe on what ever scientific or philosophical or on what ever
basis you want and..
go deep. When you get or not get the answer, then speak to yourself that you have been
assigned a purpose being on this earth and it was assigned to you not by humans but some
one else. And believing on his purpose will force you to believe on him. What else is
needed? When having such faith on God you leave yourself on his will, and you believe on
his purpose, believe that what you pray for is necessary for you and believe that no other
power except him is able to or will give it to you on his time, then you will be free from
worry, free from fear of losing your thing, and free from any doubt that you may not be
given what you want and what you pray for.
And you now have found God whom you were looking for at places but who was residing
somewhere inside you. Now you call him when you need him. Now you believe on him and
you know that what is in you heart, “is yours” and no one can take it away from you as
long as you and your God are working together for your purpose. He is there. He is with..